Friday, June 26, 2009

WWWWWWhooooo are you, who, who, who, who?...

I have lately been trying to find out who I am. I feel like I am constantly putting on a "face" for one reason or another. I'm either trying to make sure I make a good impression on a client, or trying to set an example for my girls. Even trying to select a blogger template, I am making myself decide if the design I've selected is really something I like, or if it is something I've decided fits who I am supposed to be. Becoming a mother at the age of seventeen hasn't left a lot of time for self exploration. I tend to think of myself as a wife and mother. Being those two things has defined me. My oldest daughter will start her senior year in high school this fall, and I think its time to start to define myself. Please don't misunderstand and think that I need to go off and "find myself." I am perfectly happy in my life, myself and my home.

Since I was a child, I've somehow known the path I wanted my life to take, without ever really thinking of the details. I knew what kind of life I wanted to provide for my children, the kind of family I wanted to surround them with, the character I wanted instilled within them. I knew what kind of marriage I wanted to have. Through either hard work or luck, I've somehow managed to meet those goals. My girls are growing up to be wonderful young women. They are smart, responsible, loving, and generous. They are far from perfect, but I love them with every ounce of my being.

So, who am I? (with out using "wife" or "mother")

  • I am a woman approaching my mid thirties.
  • I am desperately in love with my husband.(we'll call him "R" until I can think of a more clever name for him.
  • I own a small business.
  • I am good at what I do.
  • I am of above average intelligence.
  • I am athletic.
  • I can be judgmental about certain things.
  • I feel like I need to soft peddle and explain why I am judgemental about certain things. (But I won't!)
  • I try to not to offend people.
  • I seem to be very serious minded, but I have a good sense of humor, and sharp wit.
  • I am sometimes argumentative with my husband for no good reason. (I really need to stop that!)
  • I am a (wannabe) organized person.

Hopefully by the end of this journey, I won't have to think so hard about who I am!!!

1 comment:

  1. Those last two bullet points? TOTALLY ME. Love your blog so far!